The Urge To Not Exist

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2023-01-23 - 16:01

Sometimes I feel I should not exist. The burden to exist feels heavy. I'm not suicidal, but I think what I'm looking for is peace, and existing and living a life is too burdensome. I'm not looking to kill myself, but I can see the flaws of life. The Maya envelops me, making me want to want things. Even though I might get the things I desire. There is no guarantee that I would find happiness, even if I do, it is not eternal.

I know I'm stuck in the loops of karma and rebirth, but I can see the glimpse of how living a life is nothing but a mirage, like a longing for something that is not worth the effort in the end. You win and still lose.